Long Time No See

I do apologize for not posting more often, but if you read my main 'blog' (Read: whining journal/corner of woe) @ LiveJournal, then you would understand that I constantly beat myself up about almost every single flaw I seem to have. I'm not perfect, and the 'inner self' of mine won't let me live this down.

But it's a phase I soon hope to grow out of. I shouldn't care, but I actually do. I'm sorry. I cannot hold back anymore, and watch as dust collects.

So from now on... In order to prevent the feeling of 'must beat myself up over every single failure' - I shall post more often with things I will do everyday. It shall be my challenge. If I fail this challenge, then I will delete my blog here and just go back to the way things where before.

I try to keep my drama/life/out-of-control emotions out of my hobbies such as Lolita, ABJDs, cosplay and such... So I'll leave it at that.

Also, maybe I should rename my blog, since I think that I am unfit to 'be' a Cinderella-type person. What do you think?
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My 7 Day (Lolita?) Challenge
Day 1: Reconize who you really are
Don't give into the 'bad conscience' you have. List all the things you are good at, and all the good things people had said to you. Chances are, they're probably true.

Day 2: You Are Creative
Make something. Make a wire-and-pearl crown, an alice bow or headband, anything.

Day 3: You are Kind
Say something nice/make valentines for the people you admire. Send the valentines/nice words directly to these people.

Day 4: You are Helpful
Do something that would help yourself or others, be it a task that needed to be done, an overdue chore, etc...

Day 5: You are Beautiful
Take the day off to pamper yourself, sort of like a 'princess day' - even if you already had a 'princess day' recently... do it again, and do it how you would like to. Put your hair up, dress up in some nice clothes, do it all for you, and just because you wish to do so. (Just remember that you are beautiful no matter if you're wearing rags or jeans or frills.)

Day 6: You are Adventurous/Brave
Go out and do something that you never would normally do, like taking a walk in the woods, or downtown, go sightseeing or to spend some time in a nice place you don't normally go to.

Day 7: You are Successful
Celebrate completing the whole 7 day challenge with one more task - overview what you did, and be proud of yourself that you did it. And put on a smile that, if you survived 7 days of this, you can survive doing so everyday!

Nevermind the cheesy tones... it only sounds cheesy if you have a negative-set mind like I do. lol I gotta stop doing that.

Let's just hope I can do this for once.

New haircut

This is me, from YEARS of having ratty long hair... transformed it into something more tamable and such. I like this bob a lot.

I was looking for a sort of... 'retro' 1920's (a.k.a. 'The Roarin' 20's) look, because it was a fad for ladies to cut their hair into a bob, and then put their hair into pretty finger waves.

Because I thought it was just so neat looking, and pretty. I wanted to try it. I never really get a chance to do anything like styling my hair, because I usually lack hairspray and such. So I just let it run wild and frizzy.

But at least it looks a lot better than it did when it was long. I'm going to let it grow out now, but I believe that I will have it cut short again.

Snow White and Rose Red

Have you heard of the tale of Snow White and Rose Red?

Well, I was inspired somewhat to make these a long time ago. (Not to be confused with the 'Snow White' we all seem to know... the one that bit the apple.) This is the Snow White who helped a 'bear'.

I just thought that these outfits where beautiful at the time. I apologize for not being as whimsical and so fun like others. Moving on.

Sorry... Cinderella is lacking inspiration.

A thought I've been having...

Lolita and Disney land... No, bad idea. Not only will you have someone's kids following you around, thinking you're some sort of princess (it's cute but...) , but there are so many ways of getting temporarily stuck, having your dress caught on things, and blocking people's way with your massive frilly puffiness.

Also, the staff might have a problem with your wardrobe - though this might be a very slim chance, as none of the staff would know what Lolita Fashion is, or even wear it - but you might be asked to leave because they would think you're a Disney princess or something.

But this is all just me, really. I never looked up Disney meet-ups or trips on EGL (urrg... too lazy... too much effort... lol) but I guess I'm also just being paranoid.

Fantasy isn't always a good thing. See: Paranoia.

Blues, I'm feeling them.

Okay, I won't lie to you. I haven't been 'feeling' Lolita-ish at all for the past month, and most of this month as well. It's personal issues, most of which are things we all have heard of...

Body image issues, low self-esteem, lack of courage, and just general "omg I can't do this, so I won't" problems.

I knew I wouldn't be able to do this, so I tried anyway. I don't think this really counts as trying... I am so behind, there must have been a lot of things to talk about... And I owe October posts too, though I didn't do anything of the sort for Halloween. Because of money issues.

I cannot believe it. I am forced to quit before I begin. The only problem I have is gathering money... I really need a job, but I cannot afford to take time away from school, seeing as how this school I go to is very... Nevermind. I can catch up with all my work eventually. I just never seem to want to do it all, and get distracted, as more and more work is slapped onto our schedules. (Oh wait, I don't have a schedule...)

I think I should just changed the whole concept of this blog, or delete it. I'm sorry, I haven't tried hard enough. But I just cannot seem to get the money or time to do the things that I wanted to. So now... maybe I'll just post at least twice a week here. About anything Lolita related, and get my opinions out, and hopefully strike a nice conversation about opinions and the like. Just to make this blog a little less dusty.

I hope to get better, and a little less like a big coward soon.

Handmade: Mini Beaded Crowns

Boy do I love making things from beads and such! A few years ago I have learned how to make little crowns from wire and beads, like the ones pictured here.

I just wanted to try it out, so that in the end I would have such a nice little accessory. I was hoping that with each little thing I made (which was/is usually jewelry stuff...) that I would get closer and closer to my ultimate goal: my first real pieces of lolita clothing.

Well, that day has yet to come still... right now I'm just going to have to make more of these cute little crowns and sell them, hopefully, so that I can purchase a real blouse at least. The one I got was a cheap one that I hoped to 'fix'. Ah ha haha... The less said about that blouse the better...

Anyway, I hope to soon get going on the crown tutorial I had promised myself I'd do this week.

I believe that no lolita is complete without having at least one crown or tiara. I have... plenty. Ha! I love collecting random things, and it so happens I collect jewelry and accessories, and other trinkets. But I always tuck them away, for another day. I never wear them, for I always tell myself to not wear it unless I am clean and well dressed.

These crowns are perfect for lolitas who wish to bring more of a 'princess' feel to her look. I say that all lolitas are princess-like anyway.

My Favorite Things... (and people!)

Mana.

I got into lolita because of him, as well as anime and manga. Though J-Pop and J-rock, visual kei, and awesome Sailor Moon rip-offs, I traveled from being just 'liking' it, to totally loving the style and trying to follow it. But... funny I heard of BABY, THE STARS SHINE BRIGHT before I heard of Moi-même-Moitié!

I had first heard a song by the famous group, Malice Mizer, which was a few years back... on the internet. A friend of mine, who was a citizen of Japan and hardcore fan of Dir en Grey, BOA, Ayumi Hamasaki and the like... and thought that since I liked a certain anime (I think it was Witch Hunter Robin or something) at the time, she shown me a few videos. Linked to one of these, was the Malice Mizer music video, Beast of Blood, and I was all like: holy crap! That's freaking awesome! So I looked more into the band, and fell in love. But...

Sadly, I fell in love too late, as it was 2006, and the band had disbanded a few years earlier, in 2001. I was saddened for a while, but then I continued to listen to them anyway. I started to read more on Mana, and learned he has founded Moi-même-Moitié, which we all know is the source of EGL and EGA, and one of the most (if not, THE most) sought after Gothic Lolita fashion brand. I can agree as to why it's wanted so much... just look at those gorgeous designs, even the simplest ones are just breathtaking. After all, Gothic Lolita was supposed to be about 'simple' and 'dark' beauty, right? That is a trait of Gothic Lolita.

This is one of the reasons why I love this fashion so much.